Sunday, April 14, 2019

Failed.

I can never be a minimalist.
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Or even pretend to be one, more than a month. Sad.
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The culprit: An espresso machine!


Thursday, January 31, 2019

The year of no shopping

I need to get this out of my chest and hold this post accountable for my pledge! I mean myself, accountable. Tomorrow will be the 1st of February and I will start this ridiculous idea of the year of no shopping (trial!) Since I've already bought everything our home/we needed on January, I think it is safe to say that I'm reaaadaaaayyyyyyhhhh!

Let's set a few ground rules.

1) I can spend for groceries.
2) I can spend for gifts. (tricky, but only date/occasion-appropriate ones)
3) Read all of my already bought books if I want to buy a new one.
4) No more facial/make up stuff. Already got stocks until end of 2020!!
5) No buying bags, coats, jackets, shoes, even electronics, NO!
6) When in doubt, say NO.

Let's see how far can I go....

Tuesday, January 29, 2019

Enhance your feeling of self-worth.

I will teach my daughters this as if their lives depend on it. It was not made upon me when I was growing up, not until I got into a boarding school, but it stopped there too, when I left.

In my own family I will force myself to religiously remind my girls that they are worthy, and their efforts and their voices are, too. I will willingly accept their flaws, their shortcomings and their failures as I would want for my own to accept mine.

Judging and critics would only worsen things, negative feedbacks would only draw them further than me. My understanding of what they are going through would help them to recognize their true potentials and eventually their value and self-worths.

Oh I hope I won't ruin this one. 

Tuesday, January 15, 2019

Finish a book!

I am so mad at myself, when I saw friends posting a picture of thick-ass books with captions like, "Finished reading in just a few hours, what a good book!"

Yes, I haven't finished a book for a while now, I remember only 2 last year. One about babies and one about time. I half-read tonnes in between, and kept on forgetting where I put them.

So this year, I vow to at least finish a book monthly since I found my long lost KINDLEEEEEEHH.

Yes, I have a kindle, I bought it out of curiosity, cause my husband have one and he's glued to it since forever, and Amazon was on sale, but I never establish keen for it, because I was stubborn that I must stick to books, and I was proud because I was 'traditional' and I loved boasting to him how I LOVE the smell of books.

Of course, I love their smell, but not being able to catch up to my reading because the book was a bit too big to fit into my bag, or I misplaced it somewhere, or I forgot to bring it with me to the car, or any other time I was out, or it was dark in the room and I couldn't read, I curse myself for not using the Kindle.

Well, those time has passed and I am wiser now because of it. And it's benefiting me too!

Did you know Kindle has apps that can be downloaded in the iPhones and MacBooks? I didn't! And every time I finished reading on the Kindle device, the other devices that has the app will sync themselves (provided there's coverage) and I can pick up at any device where I left off at the last page? And also they can store up to like thousands of books at one time??? Anddd did you know that one fully-charged Kindle can last up to 8 weeks for 30 mins daily use? And PDFs and eBooks also work on Kindle??? I didn't!!! Yes, okay let's calm down.

So...seems like I have all the reasons in the world ton not bail on the vow this time. Give me a month and I'll tell you if I do/don't!


Sunday, January 13, 2019

Making this year the best year yet!

I'm not kidding!

I have last year to take a long break and create a full-completed (for now) family, and I am now vowing to gear up a notch so our family would have a better future. By future I mean in the near future and in the long run, separately.

For this I am going to categorize each sections that I would like to improve.

1)Me & S

First, our sleep. Since getting the twins we did not have a long straight night to ourselves for a few consecutive nights, and we are not planning to. We expect ourselves to wake up a few times every night to cater to the girls' needs and to care for them for whatever they need. But, that does not mean that we don't need to have a schedule of our own. Here I am imploring that S and I should be asleep before midnight everyday, so our anatomy would know that when the clock strikes 12, we are already resting and gearing up for the next day.

Second, our wars. Even though most wars are initiated by me, but I found solace in not having to keep everything inside me all the time. I feel more free to say anything I don't feel right or annoyed to S. The turnover was, when I do, sometimes I always took it up a notch and raise my voice. Being the most loving husband, S would try his best to understand how my anger management didn't work, but I seek to improve this as S did not deserve this type of personality as his wife. Now here I implore to have better control and better manage my anger towards the person I see everyday and every night, my caring husband. As to others, please wait till next year as I can only focus on one person at a time!


2) The girls

Here I vow to spend more times with the girls outdoor. We spent the whole 2018 indoor and now I think I can brave myself enough to take the girls out for a good hour under sunshine everyday. Well, I'll start once a week after they reach their first year of life. (about 2 weeks to go!) And as soon as they are able to walk & run by themselves, I am to enrol them to the nearest gym for them to let of some steam! (Well, this year might be too early)

Additionally, I would spend more time for them to enhance their cognitive abilities (that is the ability to understand) through their senses. I'll use daytime and noon for their schooling and abide to a curriculum for their age. This need extra work everyday, but I. am. doing. it!


3) As a family.

We already decided last year to maximize our home-cooked meals and not introduce sugar and salt to the girls before they reach their 1000th days of life ( from the day they were conceived) so by the time they reach 2 years old, I'll let loose a bit. But for now, no eating after 9 and big breakfast to get us going everyday, yeay! Minimize junk food, eating out, fast-food, and sugar and salt.

Exercise! I am to make sure S exercise 5 times every week, if not EVERYDAY. While me, I am going to attach myself to the gym for a few months. I need to re-create my stamina, I have a twin to care for! I also need me some muscle here and there, too bubbly for a healthy mother figure I aim for the twins. They deserve more than this shabby potato.

To happily reach the end of this year, I urge S to do a resolution map together, and perform GRIT for our future in an attempt to avoid wasting time (years, probably!) towards our common goals.

Practice gratitude! To say thanks to our family supporters in the form of heaven-sent friends and families, by always make time for them, in the means of technology like the internet! (Facetime/Line/iMessage/Zalora/Lazada/Amazon?) Thank you www!


......even though above are not figuratively accountable, I should state here that it's our newly developed principal of the year, which will indefinitely support our goals, directly or indirectly. It should help up get back on track if (when) we lose track possibly in the middle of the year, or as early as the 3rd week of January......


Pray for us!








Friday, January 11, 2019

Me 2.0, Platinum Package

Hoorah hoorah it's that time of the year again! It's the new year.

Revising channels of what got me going last year isn't that hard. My twins. My husband. My family. Easy! But to strengthen those channels and to gear up a notch to bring those up together needs more than just a little push. I have made a few decisions last year that will pivot this years' overall plans. It is not going to be easier, to sum it up.

We decided that we are going to be unstoppable. We will do what we think are best for the twins, and our little family. We might consider some advices from the people that brought us up but on the whole, we would never let anyone else decide what should we, as a family go through.

I, on my part, decide that I am going to strengthen the 4 pillars of health so I can be a better mother who are able to fully nurture my girls. My exercise, my sleep, my stress level, and of course, my nutrition intake. I'm paying a few people to help me take care of this and let's see where this will get me.

Personally, the most important feature that I will make sure to upgrade this year is my mind. My brain. I am throwing a few hours of study every day so I can get the rusty brain start moving again. Due to maternity leave I have not been using it for more than a year now, so I'm sure the thickness of the rust will scare the hell out of me but a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do. Am I right or am I right?

Without financial income I would not be able to straight it all up so I am gonna spend more strategically than yester-year because let's get real, I was spending like a freaking Kardashian while my bank account looks like I'm homeless. Of course, my net worth in Japan is already minus in the banking world.

The good part was, I was able to set aside a huge amount for the girls' future and put a safe to guard it over. I am so so proud of myself and hope the girls will too, in the future. InsyaAllah.

Well, I found out last year that selling old stuff was a bit healthier than just throwing it away or stock it in the closet for cockroaches to live rent-free, and recycling textiles at H&M will give a handsome return, I am going to do just that to top-up the emptiness in my accounts, aside from S's monthly contribution to the family.

Oh I'm hearing one of the girls. They're up early! Gotta go, toodles!